Prologue
Mommy! Mommy! Mommy is asleep on the floor. She has been
asleep for a long time. I brush her hair because she likes that. She
doesn’t wake up. I shake her. Mommy! My tummy hurts. It is
hungry. He isn’t here. I am thirsty. In the kitchen I pull a chair to the
sink, and I have a drink. The water splashes over my blue sweater.
Mommy is still asleep. Mommy wake up! She lies still. She is cold.
I fetch my blankie, and I cover Mommy, and I lie down on the
sticky green rug beside her. Mommy is still asleep. I have two toy
cars. They race by the floor where Mommy is sleeping. I think
Mommy is sick. I search for something to eat. In the freezer I find
peas. They are cold. I eat them slowly. They make my tummy hurt. I
sleep beside Mommy. The peas are gone. In the freezer is
something. It smells funny. I lick it and my tongue is stuck to it. I
eat it slowly. It tastes nasty. I drink some water. I play with my cars,
and I sleep beside Mommy. Mommy is so cold, and she won’t wake
up. The door crashes open. I cover Mommy with my blankie. He’s
here. Fuck. What the fuck happened here? Oh, the crazy fucked up
bitch. Shit. Fuck. Get out of my way, you little shit. He kicks me, and
I hit my head on the floor. My head hurts. He calls somebody and he
goes. He locks the door. I lay down beside Mommy. My head hurts.
The lady policeman is here. No. No. No. Don’t touch me. Don’t
touch me. Don’t touch me. I stay by Mommy. No. Stay away from
me. The lady policeman has my blankie, and she grabs me. I
scream. Mommy! Mommy! I want my Mommy. The words are
gone. I can’t say the words. Mommy can’t hear me. I have no
words.
“Christian! Christian!” Her voice is urgent, pulling him from the depths of his
nightmare, the depths of his despair. “I’m here. I’m here.”
He wakes and she’s leaning over him, grasping his shoulders, shaking him,
her face etched with anguish, blue eyes wide and brimming with tears.
“Ana,” His voice is a breathless whisper, the taste of fear tarnishing his
mouth. “You’re here.”
“Of course I’m here.”
“I had a dream . . .”
“I know. I’m here, I’m here.”
“Ana.” He breathes her name, and it’s a talisman against the black choking
panic coursing through his body.
“Hush, I’m here.” She curls around him, her limbs cocooning him, her
warmth leeching into his body, forcing back the shadows, forcing back the fear.
She is sunshine, she is light . . . she is his.
“Please let’s not fight.” His voice is hoarse as he wraps his arms around her.
“Okay.”
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“The vows. No obeying. I can do that. We’ll find a way.” The words rush out
of his mouth in a tumble of emotion and confusion and anxiety.
“Yes. We will. We’ll always find a way,” she whispers and her lips are on
his, silencing him, bringing him back to the now.
at last.. thanks a lot!!
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ReplyDeleteThank you very much for sharing these books ! I wanted to read them in english but I couldn't find them anywhere (I live in France) !
ReplyDeleteI skipped through the first chapters and some pages seem to be missing though... Do you think you could fix that someday ? Thanks ! :)
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i was wondering if u can post "Bared to you" as well. i heard it's very similar to 50 shades so maybe we can read and discuss.
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As! So excited to start the last book THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!
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